As long as I was alive, I was something.
That was just how it was.
But somewhere along the way it all changed.
Living turned me into nothing.
– Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
verloren im surrealen der Realität. Ertränkt durch das Leben.
As long as I was alive, I was something.
That was just how it was.
But somewhere along the way it all changed.
Living turned me into nothing.
– Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
Throughout my lifetime I’ve left pieces of my heart here and there.
And now, there’s almost barely enough to stay alive.
But I force a smile,
knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent.
I am still alive.
It is not that there were too few possibilities to die yet.
Nor was it that i am afraid to die.
Nor was it that I like to live.
It is just that I have to many things I would die for.
So I am hanging in there.
Waiting for one of those things to need my attention.
– sanados
All this walking around.
Forward, backward.
Circles, yes, most times in circles.
Mile after mile.
After some time i found the way.
A straight line.
A long one.
I started running.
My shoes start to wear out.
I wonder how long they will last.
It’s been some time I’ve been running around.
Following the path in front of me.
Occasionally tried to break through the walls beside me.
Just to look down and continue on the path in front of me.
Left with some scratches on me.
Every now and then i find some water.
Even some food i managed to catch.
Just enough to stay alive.
Just enough to keep me on the track.
Only some miles more.
I try to tell myself.
Looking down this path.
Starring into an endless horizon.
Never asked how far i have to go.
Never dared to ask why i have to take this path.
I just know it is worth it.
What could be worth all of this?
Sweated my shirt long ago.
My trousers are worn out.
My hair and beard start to hinder me whilst walking.
Make me stumble and slow me down.
This long path in front of me.
And i am getting slower and slower.
Then i tripped and came to a halt.
Here I am now.
Kneeling and asking.
Is it really worth.
Then she took me in her arms and said:
“Finally you waited for me.”
– sanados
I do not have to justify,
The way I live my life.
I do not have to justify,
The reason I’m alive.
[from the song – Justify]
– Scott Stapp
Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway.
– unknown