You know?

It is hard sometimes.
Sitting there and hardly being able to breath
because my chest is so heavy.
Feeling a firm grasp around my heart
making me feeling uneasy.
I am used to it for several years by now.
It seems like it has always been this way.
It seems like it has to be this way.
I wonder how it felt before.
Was i ever feeling easy.
But this burden is something i have to bear.
This is something i decided long ago.
And I will carry it to the very end.
– sanados

Count down from ten please

10
Green gras
the wind bends the blades
9
long road
desert
8
a half empthy glass of milk
crispy toast
7
trusted family
hugging all my beloved ones
6
lonesome trip
feeling like flying
5
sweet little baby
crying after inhaling its first breath
so full of life
reaching for the full of it
4
music?
wierd melody
3
2
i wonder
was it worth it?
is it worth it?
Am I worth it?
1
screaming silence
hope
– sanados